I have not filled my required hours yet but I am sure that will be done next week.
Day after day I felt less like I wanted to be at school. School is great.
You start each day with a staff meeting and then you work and work and work some more. I don't mind the work when I see my learners faces light up when I speak passionately about my subject, or when a learner asks if I'll be teaching because my lessons are fun and informative. Those moments are rewarding. Those moments make teaching set my soul on fire but I do not enjoy coming to school and expecting my teacher to evaluate me and they don't show up or they prefer not to evaluate me because "you already are a fantastic teacher".
I don't enjoy my time being wasted. We student teachers work hard. We are students and we want to learn and we have work to do besides our lessons that need to be planned. We are humans just like everyone else.
I come home from school plan my lessons and then sleep at 6, 7, 8-pm.
This cannot be health or right. My family complain that they don't see my, my boyfriend said I disappeared for a week and I did.
I let all this happen, I didn't take care of my own needs but that will no longer be a problem. I was emancipated from the womb and groomed into leadership. I didn't choose it, it chose me. I will always fight for what is right and sometime I forget to do that for myself. Ke nako.
To all who are struggling, don't stop moving.
Tomorrow is another day.
Shame I understand the feeling, I gave a few lessons that could have been evaluated but some of the teachers choose not to come do it. So it justs makes more work for us. Luckily for me, me and my boyfriend have worked out a schedule to see each other during the week and weekend I can rest if there is no school functions. I wish some of the teachers could be in my shoes I wake up at 05:30 to get to school before 07:30 and get home at 15:00 if im lucky then I still have lessons to plan and work to do. A little understanding would go a long way......
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